NOW, what I am terrified of is this Did my dad intentionally try to (sexually) stimulate me.or was that just my pleasure on my end? That is something that confuses me to this day. I couldn't help having a sexual connection to my dads feet right?! and i've heard the term sexual imprinting. It does make sense now and you can't blame me for having this foot fetish considering these two experiences. But anyway that happened and then I have another memory around the same age when I was on my dads leg and then I slid down on to his foot for some reason and BOOM, sexual stimulation (meaning ass and crotch meeting his food for a moment etc). I really would love everyone's feedback on all of this too. This is what probably caused the foot fetish in general. But this attraction might be explain by this When I was like 2, 3 or 4 years old I can remember laying down under my dad's chair and him rubbing his socked feet on my belly, and I remember I really liked it and that it felt good (it was only my belly not my penis/crotch area). I don't remember having this sexual arousal for my dads feet before this time. So middle school time just when I was realizing I was gay too, and that it was not okay, and hearing ¨That's so gay¨ everyday. This attraction happened when I turned about 13 and went to 14. And I loved looking at his feet when I could. I even smelled his socks on occassion while masturbating. I developed a strong desire and attraction to my dads feet (socked to be exact), and fantasized about them and jerked off.
Well I will just be straight forward and cut to the chase. As if being gay was not hard enough I have this. And it has all had to be kept secret (first being gay then my other sexual confusion and secret). See this foot fetish is not simple, it is tied to a lot of inner pain, confusion, shame, anger, self-disgust.But I have to be logical in this post so I don't get lost in my emotions. However there are two culprits for my foot fetish.
I will get to this.īefore 8 years old I did not have any genuine sexual experience with anyone. I would say a really big one, because for some weird reason, male feet had to be the first object to sexually stimulate me. I am 20 years old, gay male, and have a foot fetish. Okay I want to make this concise, because I don't want to ramble on and get lost.
I really only want all of your genuine honest opinion on my post, please.